My room
was always smaller than Kayla’s. Somehow, even though I’m the older sibling, I
got stuck with a room almost half the size of hers. [add something here about
coming from the old house that I don’t remember]. I guess she needed the space.
While m room was cleaned and organized at least every weekend, Kayla’s
progressively got messier. There were rare occasions when I could see her floor
or make my way across to her closet where I would hide a plastic snake. Those
were the times when Mom would bring up a few trashbags from downstairs, come
into Kayla’s room, and threaten to start throwing away anything that wasn’t
organized or put away. Sometimes they would clean her room for two days and
still end up with three bags of trash to throw out. Most of the time, though, I
didn’t venture in there for fear of stepping on something important buried deep
within the layers of worn and unworn clothes. She had a massive work desk in
the back corner of the room where she made “concoctions.” She would mix dish
soap, hydrochloric acid, radishes from the garden, some body lotion, candle
wax, brown sugar, and dandelion leaves into a bubbling new “skin care product.”
She always made me try it.
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
Treehouse: A Place Writing
We had a massive tree house in our backyard. Whenever I made
a new friend, I just told them my house was the one with the castle tree house,
and they’d be over that night. Dad built it by hand in 2001. I remember going to some scrap metal
yard and getting two long metal playground slides to go along with our rope-net
and wooden swing. Dad started sawing off pieces of the big oak tree growing next to
our garden in the backyard until there was nothing but the trunk left, and he
cut the top of the truck straight across to lay a 15 by 15 foot square wood
floor on top. In the end, we had a castle. It was perfectly square and painted
with grey bricks on the outside with four real-opening windows. Overtop, a white
tarp was spread in a triangle like an old fashioned tent. We had two entrances:
a ladder going up to a trapdoor entrance in the middle of the floor, and a
front door that led out from the castle onto a balcony of think rope-net.
From the
net, we could climb left down the rest of the climbing net or go straight down
the metal slides. The slides were attached to each other, the end of the first
to the front of the second to reach the ground. We had to go slow down those
slides because when the first one leveled off, the next one started to dip
again, so we could fly right off the first slide and smack our tailbones on the
bottom of the second if we weren’t careful. Mom warned us almost every single
time we played on it not to hurt our butts. But dad was crazy with us. He would
gather all the balls—basketballs, soccer balls, Wiffle balls, rubber
bouncy-balls, the blue rubber football—and throw them at us while we dodged,
hiding in the top of the castle. We would retaliate by throwing them back
through the windows and out the front door. Sometimes we used water balloons,
but that got the slides wet, so we always hurt our butts on the way down after
that, and Mom would yell at Dad for being irresponsible.
On warm
nights, we would camp out in our sleeping bags in the castle, under the white
tarp. Our dog, Shiloh, learned how to climb the ladder up to the trap door. We
would hear a thump from under the floor and open the door to see him waiting
there for us to let him in to cuddle. Dad would always let him sleep in his
sleeping bag with him. But Mom never came out to the tree house. She would
watch from the inside window and wait for one of us to get cold during the
night and scurry inside to fall back asleep over top of the heating vents in
the dining room. We would wake up with a blanket and pillow, or sometimes
miraculously in our actual beds.
Kim & Kevin - an attempt at backstory
When he was 9, my dad found a .22 lying on the table and
carried it outside while Norvel and Dorris were arguing. There was some
movement in the tree next to the sheep pen, so he shot over to the tree, aimed,
and pulled the trigger. He’d hit an adult squirrel.
“Dad, I
shot a squirrel!” he told Norvel proudly.
“You didn’t
shoot no damn squirrel.”
“I did,
he’s a’right over there!” he pointed to the small tree by the pen.
“Well
alright. Go grab him and skin him down then,” said Norvel as he handed Kevin a
gutting knife. Kevin ran back to the tree, climbed halfway up, found the
squirrel and grabbed it. It was still alive. It wasn’t alive after it hit the
ground though, and Kevin diligently skinned it and handed over the pelt to
Norvel. He was pleased.
“Alright,
now why don’t you run down into Peoli and grab me some smokes?” asked Novel. So
Kevin stood on his tippy-toes to grab the keys from the hook, started up the old red farm-truck and
drove into town for cigarettes.
***
Kevin was
16 when he started to experience puberty. He only got the muscles though, so he
was still five-foot-five with no facial hair and a baby face. Out in the Peoli
farm country, the hills are steep and the flat ground is sparse. Kevin and his
brother Kyle would run full-bore down the steepest hills they could find,
always challenging each other. As the youngest Kevin felt obligated to win
every dare. They would run closer and closer to wooden and wire fences before
sliding to a halt, and then one day, Kevin didn’t stop. He tucked in a front
flipped right over the wooden farming fence and just kept running. He’d bet
Kyle he could catch the deer out in the distance. He chased it relentlessly
into the nearby patch of woods. He lost it for a second, cut through some
bushes, and burst out into the small green clearing. Directly in front of him
stood the deer—a large buck with massive and elegant horns. Instinctively,
Kevin shot out his arm and grabbed hold of the nearest horn. The buck jumped
into the air with all four hoofs off the ground, came down planted, and jerked
his horn out of Kevin’s hand with an unparalleled force. Kevin reeled back, and
the buck dropped to its knees and army-crawled through a patch of bushes. Kyle
came up running from behind and never believed a word of it. Later, Kevin
dumped a bucket of tar on him with Vince’s help. They all got covered, and
Doris scrubbed them red and raw in a bathtub full of gasoline.
***
People say
Mom looked like me when she was young. At 16, she was 111 pounds of scrawny,
with long, bushy red hair. In all the pictures I see, she wears a familiar
goofy grin. Kim was the middle child, but always the smallest. Sue learned how
to push Kim around by the time they could both walk, and Wendy, her younger
sister, was born with Giantism—there was no hope for equality. Kim’s first name
was Carolyn, after he mom, but the one thing she did manage to call her own was
her middle name.
***
Get up
before the sun cracks over the horizon off far in the distance. Look out the window
to see the red turn orange, and the orange turn yellow, and the yellow shine on
green—or brown on the far fields. Clothes on, bite to eat, out the door. Mom
made eggs today: no fighting until at least lunch time. Walk out to the red
garage barn closest to the house. The sheep are down the hill again. Get them
after midday. Hop on the new tractor and hook up the bailor. Drive out to the
far field and turn that brown back to green.
Come back
for lunch. The dogs are pestering the chickens again. Yell, smack in the head,
deep growl and pin to ground.
***
Kevin left
home at 16 in his 67’ Oldsmobile. He became a Jehova’s Witness and
wholeheartedly believed in his message. He went door to door. He handed out
flyers. He biked or ran and left his Oldsmobile by the Amish house he rented a
room from.
“Three Spheres” by Lauren Slater from Creative Nonfiction Magazine
a.
Techniques: Begins with “Initial Intake Notes,”
which would not be written from her perspective but from someone else’s which
she is now assumedly reading for the first time as we are. It begins the piece
bonding the reader and narrator together and peaking interest in a unique way.
b.
Tone: Slater writes the first section to begin a
tone of separation. She separates herself from the patient, especially in the
notes at the beginning and continues to use speech that creates the “me” and
the “other.” This tone switches when she lets the reader into her past in the
mental institution. The tone of otherness fades away, but unwillingly, giving
us the perception of growth or mental change. Slater uses more professional
vocabulary toward the beginning to separate herself from the patients and uses
more simple speech toward the end, which joins her back with her patients
symbolically.
c.
Structure: There are 11 sections including the beginning
intake notes section. Each section is a mini-scene, some more related to each
other than others. But the scenes always start anew to give the narrator a
fresh take on something. The sections always seem to do a pause and reset on
tension or awkwardness.
d.
Tension: the tension is vague and unclear but
always building toward the beginning. The reader doesn’t know why she dislikes
Mount Vernon so much at first. Her anxiety about it puts the reader on edge as
well. The tension has lulls and spikes as she has experiences like going to the
bathroom where the patients should go.
e.
I will take from this piece the strategy of
changing the vocabulary or jargon I use to write with throughout a piece to
chow transformations or changes in my thought process.
f.
Q’s: Is this written as real non-fiction or as a
part of a “metaphorical memoir” like the title of her earlier book? Why the
birthing woman analogy at the end?
Thursday, February 20, 2014
Craft Notes: “Once More to the Lake” by E.B. White
a.
Techniques: immersion into the experience. He
paints vivid images as soon as the piece begins, but not before he puts it in
context. Summarization - quick summaries
of backstory to be developed later. He picks out the most minute details like
the dragonfly and a fork and a bait box and gives special meaning to them.
b.
Voice: Open and honest. He lets us into the process
of remembering and re-finding the place. He lets us into his mind and what he’s
thinking and how he feels like his father.
c.
Telling: He tells at the very beginning. It is
interesting enough to keep me focused for the second sentence, which contrasts
the telling with vivid imagery. “I felt dizzy and didn’t know what rod I was at
the end of.” He tells there, but it is such a bizarre statement that it engages
us.
d.
Form: simple paragraph form, but each paragraph
serves a purpose. 1-Backstory, 2,-remembering, 3-lake description, 4-I am my
father, 5-Lack of passed time, 6-trusting the lake, 7-changes, 8-painting the
town, 9-travel, 10-boat memories, 11-father-son adventures, 12-storm
description, 13-Feeling the feels of his son. The middle to end sections give
less poignant insight like deciding that he is his father, but give us more
details and imageryo the entire endeavor, so by the end paragraph when he makes
the final connection to being his son, we have a very vivid picture placed
within a larger scene we can also place.
e.
Weird and cool stuff: He doesn’t mention that
there are other campers at the camp except in passing during paragraph 6. No
mention of his wife or other family members. “The waitresses were still 15,” he
doesn’t specify that certain things are false or imagined. “No loud wonderful
fuss about trunks.”
f.
Q’s: The piece is separated into general
sections of back-story, meaning and insight, and imagery and description. Which
section was your favorite? Could I have stood alone or how does it rely on the
other parts?
What was the value of leaving out other family details? Leaving other
campers until certain points of the text and mentioning them in passing? Do we
get a greater (but false?) sense of their solitude?
g.
Write about: A time or place where/when you felt
like you were living in another person’s shoes, associating your actions with
someone else’s, just as White associates all his actions with either his father
or his son. Think of places once dominated by someone close to you that you now
dominate or fill.
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Craft Notes: ‘The American Man, Age Ten,’ by Suzanne Orlean, from “The New Kings of Nonfiction” by Ira Glass.
a.
Structure: Moves from the kid-life immersion
experience writing style to a writing style that references Colin as a child,
to an analysis section where Susan begins to put meaning with the way Colin
lives his life, and then moves to a research based section where her research
on various subjects like Street Fight II inform her points of meaning, but then
she goes back to the kid-style writing again to show that kids can’t hold onto
this deep stuff for too long.
b.
Voice: Mixes the voice between her own and Colin’s.
There are key places (the opening parahraph) that are written from his voice,
then there are analysis pieces and more reflective sections that Susan writes
in her own voice, which is a voice of contemplative amusement—looking at his
life quizzically.
c.
Telling: A lot of the telling she did was about
statistics for boys, games, etc. It was clearly not image-provoking, but it was
interesting and held my attention.
d.
Style: Some of the story seems to be written
like a research paper on children and others like a personal essay and others
like a journalism piece. The parts where she reports on what the teacher and
the students do and includes interviews with the kids and their opinions on
matters are like journalism. Whereas the parts where she uses data and
knowledge that she wouldn’t know otherwise is clearly research based and even
has a thesis aura to it sometimes. And then the parts where includes herself in
the story seems like personal essay.
e.
I will take from this the skill of writing from
a different voice. I’ve never tried that before, and now I think it might be
cool to write from my Dad’s voice on a short part of my long piece.
f.
Qs: Why the reference to sex in the first
paragraph? That was just bizarre to me. I didn’t want to think about a grown
woman and a child having sex, even if she was negating the idea. Such a weird
part of the intro. And did she use specific phrases from Colin’s repertoire to
master coining his voice?
Monday, February 17, 2014
Craft Notes: ‘The Hostess Diaries: My Year at a Hotspot,’ by Coco Henson Scales from “The New Kings of Nonfiction” by Ira Glass
a.
Tone: Blunt and open. Not afraid to negatively
portray herself. Tells it like a dramatic story, like casual story-talk.
b.
Images: Gives us a great image of the
restaurant, the first and second floors, the outside door, the bouncer. Then
when something exciting happens, she doesn’t waste time describing the places;
she knows we already have the images of place in our heads.
c.
Form: Intro scene; Star Jones story; first
getting the job and back-story; importance of clothes (with Naomi); the Bush
Daughters; Leaving: six sections.
d.
Meaning: There doesn’t seem to be some inherent
meaning or moral to the stories here. They are interesting and a good read.
They keep our interest and give us insight into her life. If anything, we see a
young and immature woman decide that she must move on and grow up.
e.
I will take from this the idea of writing a
story as an insight into my life, not necessarily a moral or a lesson that must
come out of it.
f.
Qs: What does she do now? Is she prolific and
experienced as a writer, or did she stay in the pop culture scene? This would
give it more meaning for me.
Freewrite: Ironing Board
Blue Folding ironing board, folded haphazardly
against the wall. I would leave for the banquet soon. I needed my red dress
shirt.Mom scurried downstairs with that oversized red shirt, popped open the
ironing board, heated up the iron, and got to work.
“Anyone
else need something ironed while I’m down here?” she would yell up the stairs,
but no one ever responded. Dad kept on his ‘Red Nose Run’ t-shirt and pulled a
burgundy sweater over top. Kayla would put on all her makeup at once, and Mom
would where black dress pants and a work shirt.
She
finished spraying the shirt with the purple and clear water bottle.
Freewrite: Burgers
I was flipping burgers with the arm-length metal spatula, scooping
them onto to warming grill to keep for just 2 minutes. I fried spicy and home-style
chicken, six chickens to a basket, and then down into the greasy oils it went.
Every hour, I placed new potatoes, wrapped in tin foil, into
the industrial oven. I made six pans of bacon whenever we were running low, and
helped put down fries and chicken nuggets when the fry-guy was getting slammed.
No one needed to help me though; I had a system.
That
system entailed keeping the burgers on the heating grill for up to five times
longer than regulation decreed, but it worked. I kept at least four junior and
four single patties on the grill at all times—double that when the rush came
in, and triple that when a sports team came through. But sometimes it was
impossible to tell when I’d need more burgers. I’d be chilling out with my
usual four-count of burgers around 2:30 (that middle time when no one comes for
lunch or dinner), and some carful of teenage boys would come through the drive
through and order 16 junior cheeseburgers. I didn’t like having to tell people
to wait.
When
there weren’t any customers to serve or potatoes to bake or chickens to fry, I was
supposed to throw water on all the grills and scrape the grease off them, but
instead I just listened to people. Cassidy always seemed to have such a dramatic
life for living out in the country. Once, I heard her yelling out the second
drive-thru window at a customer and then ran back into the freezer bawling.
Apparently someone had broken into her house and killed her dog.
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Place Prewrites: Places that are gone.
a.
I used
to have teal blankets on my twin bed. I used to cuddle up under them with my
Winnie the Pooh as you sat next to me. We used to read about Thomas Covenant,
the Unbeliever, every night. You would read. I would listen under my fuzzy teal
covers.
Sometimes
after we finished the chapter, you’d stay with me in bed, and I’d curl into a
ball and you’d curl around me. I always faced away from you. One night, after
an especially emotional chapter, I realized that I slept turning away from you
every night. I ran downstairs to find you and mom at the kitchen table doing
bills. I told you both I loved you, and that when I slept turned away from you,
it didn't mean I didn't want you there. You understood. But pretty soon, you stopped
sleeping there anyway.
b.
We had
the coolest treehouse in town. On top of a giant think tree in our backyard,
stood a wooden castle, complete with a tent-style tarp roof, trapdoor leading
to the metal ladder, front castle doors leading to the climbing net, and the
two metal slides. The problem with the metal slides is that they were combined
into one big slide—end of one to the start of another. So if you were going
fast enough, you would fly off the first one and land halfway down the next,
which hurt pretty bad sometimes—but we didn’t care.
We
were popular back then. If anyone wanted to come over, we just said “Our house
is the one with the massive castle treehouse in the back,” and they knew where
to go. We had parties in it, campouts in the rain and in the snow. We had
contests and taught our dog Shiloh to climb the metal ladder into the fort.
Sometimes we’d open the trap door to go down, and Shiloh would be sitting right
there, waiting for us to let him in.
One
time we made a whole city of boxes underneath it. We had the coolest tree fort
and ground fort too! The boxes were all duck taped together so that there were
tunnels leading everywhere. It took up almost our entire backyard. Some parts
even had a second floor, but the second floor didn’t last long before caving in
under me. That eventually came down, but we always had our treehouse.
I
don’t even remember when it came down. I remember Dad telling us it was
rotting, and that it wouldn’t last much longer. I remember getting too busy
with school and sports to play in it anymore, so I must have at least been in
middle school. Maybe 7th grade. I didn’t even pay attention to it
until it was gone. And then it was gone, and I felt like I’d lost part of me,
but I couldn’t explain it to anyone.
c.
That
basement has been everything. It used to be my hideaway. I would explore the
cubby hole, conceal myself in blankets. Then it was the family room. We got the
big TV and the couches and watched movies and superhero shows together. When I
got older, I brought my friends down there, and it became the party room. We had
Yu-Gi-Oh tournaments, air hockey games, Crash Bandicoot Playstation Marathons,
Pokemon trading parties. We never left that place. We would stay up for 24
hours playing against each other, sleep for the next 18, and do it again.
My
first winter break during college, I reopened up the basement, and Brandon and
I watched five seasons of “Smallville” consecutively, almost never even leaving
that basement even to eat. But the next time I came home for break it was
different. Kayla was graduating soon, and she wanted her own apartment. The
basement was hers from then on. Sometimes I’d venture down to that old spot
without thinking and get kicked out, up to my own room. My friends don’t hang
out there anymore—we’ve moved off to other houses, other basements full of
binge playing and sleep deprivation.
Sometimes
Kayla invites me down for a Lord of the Rings marathon.
Thursday, February 6, 2014
Craft Notes: “No Man’s Land” by Eula Biss from ‘Notes from No Man’s Land’
a.
Structure: Bolded sections (8 total). Different
versions of the ‘no man’s land.’
b.
Techniques: Uses a book, her past and present
interpretations (fiction!). Personal encounters turned to scenes. Insights
thrown in from herself and her husband.
c.
Images: At the beginning of ‘On the Border,’ she
does nothing but paint an image of her Chicago and then harshly contrasts it to
Evanston.
d.
Phrases: “This is what white people do to each
other, they cultivate each others’ fear.” 93% of murders are by men is “mass
pathology.” “These are the murders that allow us to be afraid of who we want to
be afraid of.”
e.
Themes: Fear (and its infusion in our lives as
violent to others); water (used as a symbol of freedom and openness, but also
of fear of the unknown and being limited); Race (the divisions of race in Chicago,
but in Rodger’s park not. The idea of pioneering overtop of the black citizens.
Being afraid of them, which hurts them and us.).
f.
Questions: Why Little House on the Prairie? Was
saying “This land belongs to God” an attempt to generalize and tie up loose
ends? It seems a little too easy that way.
Wednesday, February 5, 2014
Craft Notes: “Black News” by Eula Biss from ‘Notes from No Man’s Land.’
a.
Techniques: Throws the reader into the story
(via another story). Abrupt scene switch. Comparison of NY to San Diego. Tons
of examples. Super-short summation of entire childhood. Gun as metaphor for
unimportant crime of the past.
b.
Words / Phrases: “Another.” “When I wasn’t the only
white person at the events…” ‘Perhaps now that we believe nurture plays at
least as much a part in child development as nature, we simply take children
away from black women instead of sterilizing them.’ ‘I’m not sure at exactly
what point I lost heart…”
c.
Form: Loosely chronological, story-oriented.
Less obvious sections. The story about Ms. Johnson carries throughout and her
interjections about things as a whole appear spread throughout.
d.
I will take from this: The power of getting
angry about something. The fluidity of writing when you’re vulnerable and open
about the injustice you’ve seen. We’ve all seen injustice somewhere. Some of us
have lost heart because we’ve seen so much. I can talk about that.
e.
Voice: Angry. Fast paced and emotional. Honest
and vulnerable. Showing the loss of heart.
f.
Questions: Did she ever seek justice on her own
for these people? What were the levees?
g.
Group discussion Q’s: 1. This was a very
emotional and angering piece. At what point did you feel most connected emotionally
to Biss and her experience? Try to give a section and then a specific quote
that stood out. 2. What did you think of the weaving structure of Ms. Johnson’s
story? Was it powerful done in this way? 3. What do you think the tone and
voice were like? Angry, downtrodden, rebellious, critical? 4. Here we find out
more about Biss’s childhood and family past than we do in all the other essays
combined, and she gives it in one page length. What about this form made the background
effective? What (if anything) made it hard to follow or seem dysjunct?
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
The Peruvian Potato: First Draft
I sat with perfectly erect posture at the old wooden supper
table. There were two sliced palta
and a bag of white bread in the center—the real food was one the way. I waited
alone at that table until it came, and it was potatoes. Some other edibles were
present as well—a fried egg, some white rice—but mostly just potatoes. It turns
out Peru had about 5000 different types of potatoes to offer me. I would
probably eat about 20 of them over the next three months, and I liked some of
them. The yuca potato, for instance, is a slightly sweeter and softer form of
the potato that also happens to be filled with cyanide. They’re really good
once you cook out the toxins.
Sadly, we
weren’t having yuca that night. We had yellow potatoes that we peeled with our
fingernails (eating the skin is bad for the stomach). As a side, my host dad gave
me my choice of about 10 different types of corn he’d harvested just last week
from his chakra across the field. I decided
to pass up the exotic purple one for some regular choclo—a starchy (yes, like potatoes) white corn. We ate in silence
that first night, except to offer me seconds, and thirds, and then dessert. I
found that dessert means hot tea in Peru, and oddly enough was served to me in
a massive white-plastic thermos. “Oddly” because it was placed within a house
with bare cement walls above the first floor, on a table of hand-carved wood,
next to eggs collected that morning, and between a family that’s main income
came from Celestino’s 12-hour days in the chakra
and Sundays leading the small church service. And then there was the
American plastic thermos. When we didn’t have any tea bags left, we just mixed
cane sugar and the hot water together for flavor. It was still called dessert.
The flood
thing was actually a crazy story. In 2010, a torrential amount of rainfall hit
southern Peru, about 67% more than normal—and it didn’t stop for weeks.
Eventually all the nearby rivers started overflowing, which wouldn’t be too big
of a problem, except that the majority of homes in rural Peru are made of adobe, a tough mixture of clay, mud,
animal poop, and straw. So when the water level rose around the houses to about
the first floor, they simply melted and fell apart. Over 28,000 people lost
their homes during that storm. The famous Machu Picchu attraction was shut down
and the government used helicopters to rescue stranded tourists. Luckily, my
host family had just finished building one of the first cement houses in the
town. But water levels were rising, and they had nowhere to go when the flooded
river’s new course led straight into and around their house.
They were
on the roof, praying to God for help, when the members of the village church
appeared on the high ground. They made a human chain leading into the raging
brown river around the house. One by one, the members of my host family had jumped
to join the human chain and were pulled back to the high ground. 20 people died
in that flood, but the Cutipa family survived because of the people who loved
them.
People in
Huacarpay and nearby Lucre lived in donated tents for months before the
government built every family a one-room cement house on the other side of the
river. People migrated to the new town, rebuilt adobe houses, and tried to
salvage possessions, and then I showed up and ate potatoes and choclo. They’d housed Sammy Rosario for
SST before me, and they’d welcome dozens more students into their home after me.
I started talking, started slouching, and had my first drink of alcohol with a
family I’d come to love, but I knew I was just one potato of 5000.
Monday, February 3, 2014
Story Ideas
Upon reading ‘Journalist Takes to Sledding; Brings Home Tips and Tricks,’ by
Quinn Brenneke on Goshen Commons, I started thinking of looking at the snow
story under a different light. My first thought: interview the guys who drive
the plow trucks and clear the roads for us. What was their experience? Did they
have to do overtime on the extra-snowy days? Was it dangerous?
I read a few ‘Life After Goshen’ features
like ‘To Hollywood Through Goshen: Monica Sherer’ and ‘Monkey See, Monkey Mind
Controls Arm’ (which was super cool!). out of these I thought: What about a
Goshen grads that stayed here? What is the “just-graduated young adults” crowd
like here? How are they using (or not using) their degrees to make Goshen a
better place or to just make ends meet?
I’m leaning toward the first one. I
think that would be really interesting if thy are still plowing a few weeks
from now.
Friday, January 31, 2014
Craft Notes: “Goodbye to All That,” by Eula Biss from Notes from No Man’s La
a. Voice: Story-telling. Opening up. “I remember” a
lot. “I need to tell you,” very informal, like she’s sitting across from me
telling me about her life. Destroys fourth wall. Occasionally talks about
herself in third person as “the heroine.”
b.
Structure: Chronology—keeps resetting to the
beginning and telling the story in a different way. Like she doesn’t know what
story to tell yet.
c.
Images: The refrigerator too heavy to carry
upstairs, the rank apartment with terrible smells, the ice skating on dull
spoons and slush. Threatened by a guy with a lighter. Sexually harassed by an
8-year-old. Leaving New York with not even a bed, no more plants, or snapshots
of family.
d.
Phrases: “the myth of New York,” “Just go home/
Do it again.” The apathy and repetition. “I remember the moment when I realized
exactly what it had already cost me.” “It’s difficult for me to separate my
experience in New York from my sensation of finding the limits of my own
independence.” ‘By the time I left New York, I knew that success and failure
are silly terms in which to speak of living a life.” “the heroine is not
convinced she in the heroine.”
e.
I will take from this the voice of writing like
I’m telling an informal story, just searching for ways to say it.
f.
Questions: What was Joan Didion’s essay about (I
suppose I find out when I read that one)? Was this story before or after she
got her Master’s degree? Or her bachelor’s?
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Craft Notes: “Land Mines” by Eula Biss from "Notes from No Man’s Land"
a.
Images: The first paragraph gives several images
of undesired child behavior.
b.
Poignant quotes: “and established public
education in America as the method we use to manage large populations of our
own people who frighten us.” – suddenly relating to separated ideas.
“universal, tax supported, free, compulsory, bureaucratic, racist, and
class-biased,” describing the school systems.
c.
Voice: Authority position (having worked as a
teacher). Compassionate voice. She wants to help; she wants to figure this out.
Critical voice. She has an opinion and wants to prove it.
d.
Techniques: Juxtaposition of seemingly unrelated
ideas (fear of children with fear of African Americans, creation of school
system with controlling the African American population, “universal” and
“bureaucratic”). Examples of children’s writing to show harsh themes of their
world. Personal anecdote and personal interpretation of what it means.
e.
Structure: Somewhere between 8 and 10 sections.
Each section mixes the personal and historical (unlike other works by her that
switch sections as she switches from historical to personal).
f.
Is the reference at the end to 911? Does she
mean her role as a teacher in the end was to keep kids there? I feel like that
cuts it short.
Hug-it-out
I I had something for her. Finally, something to
give. Kayla was waiting for me when I got home. I started handing out presents:
a fuzzy hat for mom, a leather cap for dad, a knitted Spiderman beanie for
Brandon—authentic sheep’s wool—and then Kayla. The glass turtle was beautiful.
She had collected turtles for as long as I could remember, and this one would
top them all. Hand crafted in Colombia, and proof that I had thought of her on
this trip. Proof that I cared.
I
began unraveling the carefully stored present, but then I saw it, the prefect
glass turtle slipping from its packaging. It fell to the ground and shattered
at Kayla’s feet. We just stared at it for a solid minute. We both knew what it
was. It was a peace offering. It was a way of forgetting the past and moving
on, trying to become friends again. She almost cried. She just looked down at
the pieces—I saw her heart breaking. And I felt my own do the same.
a. [Second Try, Same exercise] Kayla is my little sister by two years. When we
were kids, she’d follow me around everywhere, watch Batman with me instead of
Barney, be my side-kick on neighborhood adventures. And she was my backbone. I
would stick up for a bug’s right to live on the playground, but I wouldn’t
stick up for my own right to not get beat up. That’s when Kayla came out
swinging for me. When I came home crying because I’d try to sell our garden
tomatoes to the neighbor for a dollar a piece and he’d taken the whole lot for
that dollar, it was Kayla who went with mom to get them back.
Kayla was stubborn, sassy, and
sarcastic. She was blunt. You wouldn’t want to be anywhere near her when she
came home from work. She was mean sometimes. I couldn’t stand mean people, so
slowly, we edged out of each others’ lives. But now I had a gift. I wanted our
relationship back. It would start with this gift: the glass turtle handcrafted
in Colombia. We would hug-it-out like we did when we were four and six.
I walked in my door, and she was there
waiting for me. I started handing out gifts: a wool hat for mom, a leather hat
for dad, a Spiderman beanie for Brandon. As I was unwrapping Kayla’s turtle,
her eyes got wide. She would love it. Then it fell—plummeted to the ground
right in between my feet and hers. We both watched it shatter. We just stared
at it for a minute. I felt like crying. Kayla’s eyes betrayed her for the first
time, showed her devastation. I went upstairs to try to fix it. We never
hugged-it-out.
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
First Draft: The Cubby Hole
1.
I wiggled my way into the tiny, square hole in
the wall. She followed. A “cubby hole” mom would call it. It used to be the
base of our upstairs gas fireplace, but they didn’t like it. So they carved it
out and coated the red-brick walls with the same pink carpet from the upstairs
living room. There wasn’t enough, so the brick was showing on all the corners.
The
entire wall containing the hole was bare brick. Above the hole on this brick
wall, Mom’s small wooden shelf was perched. On it laid a bi-fold wedding photo,
a big, white, unused candle, a golden goose with a small bowl for a body, and a
pair of massive toe-nail clippers sitting sideways inside the bowl-body of the
golden goose. The hole was plenty big enough to fit my 8-year old body through—barely
capable of allowing a full adult passage into its domain. The room inside the hole was a strange shape—like
a rectangle with a trapezoid on top of it and extra squares off of the sides. Despite
being a tiny room, it was about eight feet tall (all the way up to the next
floor). It was a secret place. A spying place.
When
Dad got home from winning another “3 on 3” tournament with Feeba, Ryan would
follow me down into the cubby hole. I could put my arms and legs on the sides
of the trapezoid part and Spiderman-climb all the way to the top, where the
leftover metal tubes from the fireplace still dangled down on my head. Through
the holes and tubes above me that led to the living room (which still appeared
to have a fireplace in it), I heard every word Mom and Dad and Feeba would say
to each other. I would climb down to my enamored friend and report the topics
of discussion.
They
talked about Dad’s 3-point shot. They called him Dr. Nay. He almost never lost.
They said he could have gone pro when he was younger. Dad was silent after
that. They talked about us kids. They tapped on the fireplace when they knew I was
listening. Mom never said much. She was glad he was home. Glad they had won.
Sometimes, after Mom left to make supper or wash dishes, Dad and Feeba would
talk about wives. I guess Feeba wasn’t very happy with his wife, and Dad would
say encouraging things. He would say “be patient,” “they’re all the same,” “you
got to learn to deal with it.” He would suggest they go out for a drink to let
off steam.
When
they came for us, I climbed to the top and hid. Ryan curled into a tight ball
in the right or left square, but parents’ hands could reach the squares. Feeba
would drag her out and tickle her on the ground outside our oasis. I stayed
hidden. No one could reach me there. I was safe. I had control. I would listen
for the screen door to click closed from upstairs, still listening through the
metal tubes and vent holes.
One
day, Ryan came running down to the basement yelling about Mommy and Daddy
kissing. We were suddenly perplexed by this. We’d seen it a million times, but
just now we thought of it. We thought of ourselves—a boy and girl just like
Mommy and Daddy. We climbed into our secret space. We looked at each other, and
we kissed. We were very proud. “Daddy! Me and Kolton kissed!” she exclaimed
while voluntarily venturing out of the dark cubby hole. They weren’t quite sure
what to say.
A
few years later, Mom thought the basement was too cold to do anything in. They
installed a small furnace over the opening of the cubby hole. I tried to
squeeze through once. I didn’t fit anymore.
Craft Notes: “Three Songs of Salvage” by Eula Biss from Notes From No Man’s Land
a.
Techniques: Starts in the middle of a scene.
Uses “the escalator” and “the Fifty-first Street station” opposed to “an
escalator” (generic escalator). It gives immediacy and specificity to the opening
image.
b.
Tone: Blunt. Recounts sad story after sad story,
doesn’t reveal the connection between. “God bless you” repeated over and over.
We don’t know how she feels about religion at the beginning. Admittive (saying
sothing for the first time out loud feel) “And this is hard for me to admit”. “Born
Again.”
c.
Structure: Numbered Sections. Different chapters
starting with her experience and morphing to other family members. Section 2 in
kind of a full flashback, but not really. It’s an abstract flashback.
d.
Important points, phrases: ‘I haven’t spoken yet,”
describes an interesting fact that we seldom think about but always take part
in: when do we say our first word each day? “God bless you, sweetheart”: we
start to establish her feelings toward religion, as complex. “Obatala, is the
father of both insanity and wisdom,” creating connections between the two. “Save”
so many meanings.
e.
I will take the technique of creating immediacy
by usinf “the” instead of “a” as articles. Also open-ended questions
throughout. It’s intriguing and hinting.
f.
What does it mean? I still feel ambiguous. She thinks we must be
born again, but how does that apply to the specifics in her life? She feels new
beginnings are good for us. New directions.
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Craft Notes: “Relations” by Eula Biss from "Notes from No Man’s Land"
a.
Tone/voice: Personal and informative. Court
Cases, history lessons, like a newspaper story in its beginning—telling us what
happened like a newscaster. Interesting flair to the piece: “epic tale of blood
and belonging.” Changes to personal tone, uses first person.
b.
Structure: Starts out as a news story. Moves into
the personal with the doll stories. To the general with Black/white doll stats.
Back to the personal story with her doll. A short section broadening it back to
the general again. Staying with Cousins. Back to the original news story, but
in a personal way now. It’s a braid of many different elements, none of which
come to a real conclusion until the end, so it keeps us interested.
c.
I will take the suspense from this for my own
writing. The idea of broadening a personal story with elements of world news or
historical fact and leaving each part of the story open-ended until the end. I
will use that to make my pieces more interesting.
d.
Words that bring in the focus: “It isn’t easy to
accept a legacy of whiteness as an identity.” “Topsy-turvy doll” “refused to be
white.”
e.
Style: it’s like a mix genre between historical
non-fiction, news writing, and personal essay. The beginning seems like the
news writing, and the facts and history of the dolls seems like historical
non-fiction. Then she adds in the personal essay throughout.
f.
Q’s: I wonder whether she started with the
personal essay idea and expanded the historical and news-y pieces around it, or
if she thought the news story was interesting and then as a second thought was
able to connect it to her own life. Was the piece heavily research-based, or
just knowledge she kept somewhere in her brain and later used?
Monday, January 20, 2014
Craft Notes: “Introduction” by Ira Glass from "The New Kings of Nonfiction"
a.
Telling: “I don’t see anything wrong with a
piece of reporting turning into a fable.” “They either find a new angle on
something we all know about already, or—more often—they take on subjects that
nobody else has figured out are worthy of reporting.” “I think you’ve really
only got two basic building blocks. You’ve got the plot of the story, and you’ve
got the ideas the plot is driving at.”
b.
Images: photocopies of photocopies, piles of old
stories. “Random issues of a Canadian magazine a friend edited for a while.” “You
can knock your head against a wall for days,”
c.
Tone: Very informal and friendly. Cusses,
informal vocabulary, talks to us like we’re talking over coffee. “trying his
damndest.” “I say Phooey to that. This book says phooey to that.” “trots”, “hokum”,
“this passage just kills me,” to introduce a quoted text. “I think it’s for
losers.” Very comedic and entertaining. Tells us how she feels.
d.
Structure: Her opinion and images, a passage
from a story, “telling” the importance of the passage or of that person. Stars
to separate sections of more specific focus.
e.
Questions: Are all the passages from the intro
later in the book? I hope so. Also, What would Ira consider a line between news
features and larger non-fiction stories, if there even is one?
First Draft of "Looking for an Upgrade"
There’s always something newer. In 8th
grade, I traded in my first cell phone—a brown old Motorola flip-phone—for a
shiny new Razr. A year later, I got a blue slider-phone with a full keyboard.
Junior Year of high school, Mom bought us all iPhones, and I kept that for years.
I thought I had something substantial, something that could change how I lived
a little. I utilized every aspect of the phone: I used it to keep my schedule,
to wake me up, to document important moments, and even to shop cheaply. Sitting
on the toilet was no longer wasted time—l could be productive at any moment. I sunk
into the iPhone as it sunk into me. Wasn’t it good? Everyone else was moving
onto the iPhone 4s, but I was still content with my 4. I was proud of that. It
wasn’t the newest, but it was still the best.
In
8th grade, I broke up with Rachel, my first girlfriend—my first
kiss. I dated the preacher’s daughter, and we had fun. A little better than
last time, I thought. I dated one of the hottest girls in school. It was new
and fresh and exciting. A few months later I wanted someone more substantial. I
dated an older girl. A little better than last time, I thought. I dated a band
geek. Almost, I thought. Almost. Junior year of high school, I dated a Mexican
girl, and we stayed together for years. I thought I had someone substantial
now. She changed the way I saw the world and how I lived. We were together at
every moment. We utilized every second together: we studied Spanish together, watched
kids’ cartoons, debated the theology of prayer, made out on old country roads. I
had no time to waste—her problems were mine to fix. I sunk into her as she sunk
into me. Wasn’t it good? Everyone else was moving on new loves, another crush,
but I was still content with her. I was proud of that. She wasn’t new, but she
was still the best.
Everyone
at college had iPads. They were new and fun and exciting—so much more useful! I
held on to my iPhone 4 for a while. The screen cracked around the edges. The
battery life dwindled. The camera stopped working. It was falling apart. I
couldn’t stand to see so many people with great new technology while I was
barely able to communicate with my iPhone. I bought an iPad. I used it for
homework; I watched movies while I biked; it changed the way I lived in its own
small way. It was new and exciting.
Every
girl I saw at college was brilliant. They were different and new and exciting—so
unique compared to the girls I knew in high school! They had goals and passions
and strong opinions. They were strong. My sweetheart and I, we stayed together
for a while. We stopped talking to each other. Our energies dwindled dealing
with each other. I couldn’t see her as beautiful anymore. We were falling
apart. I couldn’t stand to see so many young women full of life and energy and
love while I could barely communicate with her. We broke up. She dropped out of
college. Three months later, I gently kissed a PJCS major. She wanted to help
others, save the world, change the way we lived. She was passionate. She was new
and beautiful and exciting.
I’m
running out of money. Looking for the next best thing takes a toll after a
while. I want to live with what I enjoy, not what society tells me I’ll enjoy
more. This habit still aches on me.
It’s
been two years. I cannot keep looking for the next best thing. I want to live
with who I enjoy and love, not she who society tells me I could enjoy or love
more. The habit still aches on me.
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Craft Notes - “On the Fine Art of Literary Fist-Fighting” by Lee Gutkind
a.
He uses techniques like sliding between scenes,
sometimes tears apart, but they always have something related to join them
together. He switches back and forth in time, not going straight
chronologically. He weaves other people’s stories in with his own.
b.
The voice is conversational. He tells stories
like he’s sitting across from me, reminiscing about the past. He uses informal
words like “newish” and seems to trust the reader with the intimate details. He
doesn’t make a big deal out of them, like he’s told it all before, and maybe he
has.
c.
Every time he slides to a new topic or scene he
creates the image of the scene. Like when he starts talking about living in Pittsburgh,
“I walked around my neighborhood with my guard up.” He gives us an image to
look at while he lays the big stuff on us, like the heavy amount of discrimination
and violence there was toward him because of his Jewish religion.
d.
There are five sections: an intro, a section on
getting started in journalism and the “newish” type of writing, a section about
how creative non-fiction became a focus, a section about starting the literary
journal, and then how he feels about the journal. The overall sections are
chronological through his life, but the stories within them often aren’t.
e.
I will take with me the idea of having an
overarching chronological work of non-fiction, but within the chronology, using
different times and parts of my life to build on each other by theme rather
than time-relation.
f.
Questions: How is this supposed to be a part of
a memoir? It seems way too condensed to be part of a memoir. What was a
defining nationwide occurrence that sparked the idea of Non-fiction being
worthwhile?
Craft Notes on 'The Father" by Mary Jones
a.
The voice is matter of fact. There is no telling
at all, just showing. Maybe the end is telling: “they did not see him on the
first Sunday, or on any other day, any more.” That ending line doesn’t give us
an image, but it creates an emotion. All through the piece, she is just letting
us absorb all these images, and then BAM, at the end we have to feel something,
and it germinates from the images we’d just absorbed.
b.
This quote
and phrase, “I don’t care about my kids,” the father said. And he closed the
door and ate the spaghetti,” show me the kind of man the father is in a very
small space. It makes the whole piece. We catch glimpses of who the father is
throughout, with the repetitiveness of the actions, the fact that they only saw
him once a month, but that phrase shows what’s actually happening between him
and his kids.
c.
The piece holds together because it is extremely
short and to the point. It borders on matter-of-fact sometimes, and that’s what
keeps it going. They do the same thing every month, ans it’s told in a
fast-paced matter of fact way, and we are waiting for something to change. When
it does change, it hits us hard because of what the meaning is, but also
because the format changes from matter-of-fact showing to a final telling
sentence.
d.
I take with me the idea of accompanying changes
in the content of a story with format changes or style changes as well. By
changing the format and the content and the style all at once, I can create a
bigger impact on the reader, and it will be more noticeable. In this way, I could
also call attention to certain aspects the reader should notice.
e.
The form is simply an intro of the repetitive
happening with the father, a scene with the father and the man at the door, and
the ending sentence. The children never have voices of their own, which is
interesting. It almost seems like the story is told by the mother about her ex-husband.
The father has his voice in the second part along with the salesman. The
mother, if the author, would be the one telling of their activities in the narrative
section. The kids never get a section. They are silent passive agents to the
movements of their parents.
f.
I also read: “How to Fall in love For Real” by
Kent Shaw, “Balancing Act” by Lisa Knopp.
Dear Dad,
Do
you remember when I jumped off the boat? I was probably four or five, just sprawled
out on our inflatable green raft. I was playing with the nightcrawlers we’d
picked up at the Turnabenie’s drive-thru. I think you and Mom were getting
along—just there, fishing together.
I
remember looking out over the edge to see the water. It was dark green, almost
black. I leaned—not at all cautiously—over the raft’s edge to touch it, and I
plunged in head first. You told me later that I barely made a sound. That all
you heard was curplunk, and I was
gone. I remember it was peaceful down there. I saw only dark liquid everywhere;
I didn’t move at all. I just sank deeper.
I let myself go. But do you remember when you grabbed me? You grabbed me
around the waist. You tilted me up slowly and changed my path, until we both
popped out of the water back into the air. You asked me if I had fun. Of course
you would. With a big smile, I said yes, and I saw mom frantically flailing
toward us from behind.
Do
you remember when you left? Because I don’t. I wasn’t there. Mom and Kayla
started jumping off the boat. They went head first and didn’t move. They were
sinking, and I had to catch them, guide them back to the air myself. But
eventually, I jumped too. And this time, I just kept going. I kept falling
further and further away from it all. I let myself go. Mom jumped in after me,
thrashing around in the water hoping to find me. She’s still there, thrashing
in the water. You’re still gone. I actually did pretty well underwater. I
learned how to swim. But one of us is still sinking. Please catch her.
Love,
Kolton
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Dad as a teenager
Dad
was “Kev” growing up. He was short, slim, and scrawny with not a hair on his
body save his dirty-blonde locks. He was a pretty-boy—one of those faces that
made the girls swoon despite his height challenge. But at home, he was the runt
of the guy, senior only to his little sister, Kim. When he was about 15, he
came outside in his blue Cavs tank top and gym shorts looking for his older
brother Vince. He had a plan. Together, they rigged an elaborate trap for their
older brother Kyle in the barn. First came the bucket of tar, then the chicken
feathers, fresh from the chickens in the back yard. By the end of the prank,
they were all covered in tar, so their father, Norvel, threw them in the tub
one by one and dumped gasoline on them. Doris rubbed them raw with a hard foam
scrubber. Once their skin was raw, Norvel gave them each a few good slaps and
sent them to the Hilltop Market to get some cigarettes. Dad ran down into the
fields instead chasing deer. He promised himself he’d catch one someday.
Monday, January 13, 2014
My First Memory
I
remember sitting in a green rubber raft. I was playing with big, fat nightcrawlers
in a blue plastic container we’d picked up at Turnabenie’s, the drive-through
market on our street. I remember putting down my wriggling worm and peering
over the side of the inflated green sides of the raft to see us surrounded by
shimmering dark water. My parents were both on the other side of the boat
fishing, but I paid no mind to them. The darkness of the water beneath me was
fascinating. I remembering reaching for it—I so wanted to touch it. I wanted to
explore the new exciting expanse below my bobbing raft. I leaned a little farther
over the edge of the raft, reached a little farther to that shimmering dark
green. I remember slipping forward. My hand entered first, it was a rush of
cold and wet and new and I loved it. I let my arm and head follow it into the
new land. I remember my whole body being underwater, and I was just urging
myself down deeper. I didn’t move my body, I just sank and observed. I remember
feeling my dad’s hands come to rest softly around my waist. I knew they were
meant to be there. He tiled me forward, then up, and then we both surfaced out
of the water. I remember Dad turning me toward him and asking me if I liked it.
I just smiled. I remember seeing Mom in the background frantically splashing
her way through the water toward us. Dad pulled us back to the raft.
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